Okay so three weeks ago, I officially closed the chapter on my childhood and legally entered the whole of adulthood. And now as a fully fledged "adult" I can honestly say it sucks massively.
I don't know what I was expecting in truth, I really don't know. Balloons? Fireworks? All my big life decisions just magically resolve for me? Well none of that happened and I can say I feel most positively younger than I feel 3 weeks ago. I feel like I'm about to enter high school again, all gawky with braces, greasy hair, social anxiety and no bloody clue what to do with my self. It's come back around to hit me in the face.
I'm leaving 6th form next summer and then plonked in to real life. Where they are no rules, exams, sick-days, lessons, no designated bench where all your friends go to for lunch times, no more scrolling through tumblr without guilt for not paying bills and doing work or whatever. I'm going to have to deal with it all on my own and not having a net under me to catch me. It's bloody scary and I feel like I am being fed to the sharks.
And no amount of coffee, music, literature or burrito meals can make it evaporate. But I guess this is one step to realising this is life and I actually have to start doing things myself, because it's not going to be offered to me through a link on tumblr.
I had this talk with a friend the other day and my issue is I'm all talking and over-thinking. So from this day forward, I'm actually going to make a massive effort on this feminist, review blog and also on my main fashion, styling blog by getting involved with social media, magazine reviews and to really get in to getting a audience.
So if you are interested and want to get involved with my developments, I suggest you keep an eye out on this and my other blog for exciting news.
What you can look forward to is music and social reviews, creating food and drinks, advice, feminist news etc.
Love
Madison xxx
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